THR has the exclusive first look at actress Tania Gaborian’s new memoir Black Skinned Lord, due out this fall from Simon & Schuster.
Gaborians’ memoir, a memoir that was inspired by her experiences on the set of Black Swan and her own experience as a woman of color, is also about the history of racism and the way in which it has impacted her life.
In addition to her upcoming memoir, Gaborions memoir, the memoirs is set to include interviews with women of color and includes a chapter on the impact of the Black Lives Matter movement and the recent Trump administration.
Gagarian, 44, says that the new memoir is about how she feels she was shaped by racism and sexism.
“I never wanted to be a part of something that made me feel like I was ‘different’ or ‘less than,'” Gaborious says in the excerpt of her memoir that’s available online.
“That is not who I am.
I am who I was and it was a privilege to see the people I grew up with and meet them on the street and in the movies, and I wanted to share my story.”
In the excerpt from Black Skined Lord, Gagarious talks about her experiences as a white person in the ’70s and ’80s, her desire to make movies and her desire for a career in acting.
“When I was young, my parents were not interested in me and they were not involved in my life, they never really taught me anything.
I was an orphan.
My family didn’t give me a name.
They didn’t make me feel anything, they didn’t understand me,” she says.
“I wanted to do something else, I wanted something that was more glamorous, that was going to make me money.
I wanted more than just acting, I had to learn how to do it and get it out there, that’s the real life, I was going for it.”
Gaborious said that it took her years to realize that she could do anything and that was a good thing.
“The truth is I never wanted anyone to make fun of me or anything about me.
I just wanted to have a career and a family and that’s what I did,” she said.
“They didn’t see that and that made it so hard for me, I couldn’t have that, but I was the way I was, and that helped me to realize I was special.”
The Black Swan director of photography Michael Eisner, who directed Gaborius in the movie, said that he was surprised by the memoir’s popularity.
“It was a revelation,” Eisner told THR.
“She’s a very honest person, she’s very candid and she’s really a good person, and she was very clear about what she was going through, and how she felt about it, and then she took the time to talk about it and share her experiences with her family and the world about how it affected her and what she went through.”
The memoir comes in the wake of Gaborion’s Oscar nomination for Best Actress in a Supporting Role for the film.
Gaby also won Best Actress at the Golden Globes for her performance as Angela Lansbury in the HBO film Black Swan.